My First Christmas in Heaven

I see the countless Christmas trees around the world below
With tiny lights, like Heaven stars, reflecting on the snow.

The sight is so spectacular, please wipe away that tear,
For I am spending Christmas with Jesus Christ this year.

I hear the many Christmas songs that people hold so dear,
But the sounds of music can't compare with the Christmas choir up here.

I have no words to tell you, the joy their voices bring,
For it is beyond description, to hear the angels sing.

I know how much you miss me, I see the pain inside your heart.
But I am not so far away, We really aren't apart.

So be happy for me, dear ones, You know I hold you dear.
And be glad I'm spending Christmas with Jesus Christ this year.

I sent you each a special gift, From my heavenly home above,
I sent you each a memory of my undying love.

After all, love is a gift more precious than pure gold.
It was always most important in the stories Jesus told.

Please love and keep each other, As my Father said to do,
For I can't count the blessings or love he has for each of you.

So have a Merry Christmas and wipe away the tear,
Remember, I am spending Christmas with Jesus Christ this year.

I bought this at a craft show right after we lost our little Cameron and I just bawl every time I read it. I pulled this out of our holiday bucket and although it's not his first Christmas in Heaven, I know there are many out there who have lost loved ones this year.

To the Hansen Family, I know you probably don't know me very well,and you may never read this, but I frequent your blogs and you have brought me to tears with your expression of love and gratitude for your dad. You have such strength and tremendous testimonies of our Heavenly Father's plan. I can't imagine not knowing that plan and never knowing whether we are going to see our loved ones again. Isn't it just so nice to JUST KNOW!!! I love that!

This time of year makes me remember my many blessings, and the people that mean most to me.

- I am grateful Shiloh and I come from such wonderful families. We have been blessed to come from families that embrace the gospel and they have taught us very well.

- I am grateful for my home. It may be small, but it is my home and I love it.

- I am grateful for my 4 wheel drive.

- I am grateful for my calling in the church, first counselor in the Primary. I love those kids.

- I am grateful for such wonderful friends who let me vent to them as often as it is needed. ( Which really is not that often, and I am grateful for that too!!!)

- And last of all, I am grateful for my Husband and my son and my two girls.
Shiloh is constantly a light in my world. He is so helpful and kind and easy going. I couldn't imagine my life without him. I am so EXTREMELY grateful that he holds the priesthood. We were able to bless Nevaeh last week and is was such a powerful blessing and I know that Nevaeh and Hannah will receive those blessings and they will be tremendous help to them in this world.
I love that even though I don't get to raise my boy here on this earth...I WILL!!! And that day will be simply amazing. He has a job to do and even if it is to keep me on the right path, he is doing a great job. I know he is waiting for us and that is enough to make me want to be worthy to hold him and raise him.
I love my two girls with all of my heart. They are so much fun and full of life. Hannah is extremely talented and can make us laugh and say " Did she really just say that", and she does on a daily basis. She is so brilliant and beautiful.
Nevaeh is growing up so fast and I am very grateful for her good health. I worried about that my whole pregnancy and I can see that I didn't need to worry about it so much...she is perfect. We are starting to see her personality shining through and I just can't wait to see what she blossoms in to. But for now, I love the baby stage and I am embracing every second of it.
And as for me, I am grateful that I am who I am, and that I don't feel the need to pretend I am someone else. I love my life and the person that I have become. That doesn't mean I am anywhere near perfect, but I am trying and I think that is all our Father asks of us. I love that I am healthy and happy. I have a testimony that is continually tried and strengthened. I know that our Heavenly Father and Savior love me so much and I know that my family loves me and that is all I need, that is enough! I love my life and I love my cute family, what more could a girl possibly ask for!

My Girls

Just wanted to share some cute pictures of my girls! There are some from Halloween...Hannah was Mermaid and Nevaeh was a pea pod, pretty cute if you ask me. The others are from our Halloween photo shoot in our house...I made the girls matching tutus, I think they turned out pretty good. And the last ones are just of a beautiful fall day with daddy mowing the lawn. I love fall. I don't want winter to come for a while.

Just an update on my girls-

Hannah - As usual she is extremely stubborn and can drives Shiloh and me crazy, and succeeds at doing so most every day. On the other hand she is so stinkin smart and she knows it. She gets more beautiful everyday. She likes to tell me about fashion and if I look good or not. The other day she informed me that I looked goofy without makeup and she thought I needed to get it on quickly...she really doesn't like the makeup free mom. That's okay, neither do I. We love this little girl but she continues to push our buttons daily, but we sure do love her.

Nevaeh - This girl is getting fun. She is starting to coo and smile. I love it!!! She is getting really chubby and is definitely well fed. She wakes up about every 2-3 hours and I don't really sleep much these days but amazingly, I stay awake during the day.

We are loving life right now, it isn't what we had planned but we can't complain, after all, we have been blessed with wonderful families and two beauties. I also have to say that I have a great husband. He is working hard these days trying to provide for our family and I am so grateful that he allows me to stay at home with the girls. LIFE IS GOOD!!!