Our Deepest Fear

Shiloh and I watched Coach Carter about a month ago and I forgot how much I love that movie. During the movie Coach Carter keeps asking one of his players what his deepest fear is and in the very end he finally tells him. (This isn't the exact same as what they say in he movie, this is the real quote.)

"Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate.
Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.
It is our light, not our darkness, that most frightens us.
We ask ourselves, who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, and fabulous?
Actually, who are you not to be?
You are a child of God.
Your playing small doesn't serve the world.
There's nothing enlightened about shrinking so
that other people won't feel insecure around you.
We are all meant to shine, as children do.
We are born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us.
It's not just in some of us, it's in everyone.
And as we let our own light shine,
we unconsciously give other
people permission to do the same.
As we are liberated from our own fear,
our presence automatically liberates others."

^^ Marianne Williamson

I love this because it explains what my life feels like sometimes. We have had a fair share of trials this past year with jobs and just life in general. It is hard being at a stand still when school is over and you expect life to all the sudden begin but it doesn't work out quite like you had hoped. We had also been trying for a baby for a little over a year and I know that is nothing to some couples but we didn't have a hard time getting pregnant with our first two so I didn't expect any complications with getting pregnant again. It just through us for a loop a little bit. Anyways, lately we have been realizing the blessings of everything that has happened, or better yet, everything that has not happened. We have seen that things are working out in the right time and the right place. As much as I would have loved Shiloh to have found a job right after he graduated, he is finally starting his own little business up, and that is exciting and scary at the same time. But had he gotten a job he wouldn't have entertained this idea and we both feel really really good about it so I think it was just another blessing in disguise. Also after over a year we just got pregnant at the perfect time. Heavenly Father knows what he is doing, I just forget to have faith in his plan sometimes and I forget to have faith in myself. You know, the funny thing is, when we got pregnant I couldn't help but wonder why I got pregnant when so many deserving and special women haven't been able to. Why was I the one, surely I didn't deserve this as much as they did. This is the reason I love the quote so much. We do deserve this, Heavenly Father knows the desires of my heart and knows what is best for us. I am curious to see how this next year goes with a new baby and a new company. Needless to say, we have been blessed and we are very grateful.

A Week in Paradise

Well we had a BLAST last week in Cancun. The weather was beautiful and it couldn't have been more perfect. We were really sad to have to come home but I am just glad we had a week to relax. Hannah REALLY loved the beach and the pools. She keeps asking us is we can go back there. I wish we could go back too. It is really nice to be back in the states for a few reasons, free and clean (cleaner) bathrooms, good water, and a nice bed. Anyways, we had so much fun and can't wait to go back. Hopefully next year.

In other news...maybe you noticed my newest addition to the blog...we are so excited and happy to say that we are expecting baby #3. It has been a long year and we are ready for this new little baby to join our family. Hannah is finally getting excited and is starting to understand a little better. She actually went around Mexico telling people that her mommy has a baby in her tummy. I thought it was pretty cute. We just pray that everything goes well. We had a ultrasound done two weeks ago and our little was very active already and everything looked really good. I was so nervous that we wouldn't see anything in there but for all the sickness that I have had, there better be a baby in there... and there was. Well anyways, we are excited and very ready for this new adventure. Life is good!!!!

By the way...picture of our trip will be coming soon.

Saturday Fun!

Whats better than making a fort with a two year old on Saturday morning. It was such a beautiful morning and really warm so we decided we needed to be outside. Hannah had a really fun time, we actually put the laptop out there so she could watch her movies and she stayed out there for a good two hours. She loved it, and I really loved it too until I became the slave instead of the play mate. I guess that is what moms are for right.

I may complain about where I live,but just look at the view I get everyday. The mountains look so pretty lately, and this little girl doesn't look to bad herself.

Blowing her mommy kisses



The finished product. It amazes me that such a simple tent can make her day.

The Princess relaxing in her castle.

This is Hannah's new smile...really cheesy but way too cute! I love this girl.

Trying to do the cheesy Hannah smile


What a great day so far.

Winter

Well, I am officially REALLY bad at blogging. I get so far behind I don't even want to try to catch up, so that results in my serious lack of blogging. I haven't posted anything about Christmas or anything since, so I though I would at least post some pictures. We had a great Christmas, definitely a snow filled Christmas break. We went up to Island Park for a week and it was really really relaxing. I love that Hannah is old enough to enjoy the snow and snowmobiles. She looked cute in all her snow clothes and with her goggles and helmet on.

Just a little update, since the middle of December I started working again part time at the same Law firm I worked at before Hannah was born, only this time I am a receptionist. I really got lucky, the job offer came right when we needed it. It was definitely a blessing. It took some getting used to but I work with really great people and I actually enjoy it quite a bit. Shiloh is starting up a new business hopefully this week. He is trying to tie up some loose ends and he should be up and running this week...HOPEFULLY. He is going to be selling a software the provides a way for businesses to get organized and keep track of everything that is happening in the company. I can't really explain it like Shiloh can. He is really excited about it. He has a company name and everything...Armstrong Corporate Compliance Systems, LLC. Cool huh! We are excited and nervous to see how things will work out, but I hope that they do well and knowing Shiloh...they will. We have been blessed tremendously this past month and it is crazy to take a step back and see how much the Lord has blessed us. Hannah is getting big and cute but she is a handful. She loves to be a big girl and sometimes it drives me nuts but I love her and she is the sweetest, most lovable little girl. Anyways, enough babbling...here are some pictures of the last few months. I needed to get these done because in less than two weeks we are going to Cancun, Mexico and I really want to be able to come back and blog strictly about that. I AM SOOOOO EXCITED. Well...Enjoy!

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