You're Gonna Miss This

CAN YOU RELATE?

Five years later there's a plumber workin' on the water heater
Dog's barkin', phone's ringin'
One kid's cryin', one kid's screamin'
She keeps apologizin'
He says they don't bother me
I've got 2 babies of my own
One's 36, one's 23
Huh, it's hard to believe

But you're gonna miss this
You're gonna want this back
You're gonna wish these days hadn't gone by so fast
These are some good times
So take a good look around
You may not know it now
But you're gonna miss this
You're gonna miss this
Yeah, you're gonna miss this

Somedays I wish for nothing more than the day to be over and to be in my comfortable bed. Sometimes I wish away these next few years of little sleep, no money and small houses. Most days I wish a didn't have dishes to do, mounds of laundry to fold, baskets of shirts to iron, bathrooms to clean and toys to be picked up. I wish I didn't have so spend a fortune on gas, groceries and other wonderful necessities. Sometimes I want to worry about no one else but myself....but this week I found myself feeling grateful for all these terribly wonderful things. I realized that these mean that :

- I have child who keep me going (one who reminds me that she is there by her small but very clear kicks and jabs to the stomach)
- No money gives me time to learn and to grow with my wonderful husband.
- Having a small house doesn't allow us to be very far away from each other and by doing so gives us the opportunity to become closer to each other.
- Dishes mean we have food on our plates.
- Laundry means we have clothes on our back.
- Shirts to iron means that I have a husband who likes to dress very well and who has someplace to go every week that allows him to dress in his Sunday best.
- Bathrooms to clean mean that we have a place to prepare for our day and keep our bodies clean.
- Toys to be picked up...well, as often as I do this...I realized this means that I have a daughter who has quite the imagination and makes our house a home by these small (sometimes very large) messes.
- I will gladly spend a fortune on gas because we have been blessed with a reliable vehicle that has treated us very well.
- And last but not least, I am grateful I have others to worry about because it would be very boring if I just had to worry about myself.

I get so caught up sometimes on the negatives that I forget that most of the time..those negatives are only our positives in disguise. We are blessed beyond belief and I wish I could have the ability to see past our trials and see the blessings that are hiding right behind them. I love the many messes in my house and the people who help make them. They are my world and I can't imagine life without them.

A couple of nights ago I was laying with Hannah in bed and I was tickling her back and telling her stories and talking about her baby sister and all of the sudden I felt our baby girl squirm and I am pretty sure she was just getting comfortable for the night. I couldn't help but feel completely overwhelmed by the love that I felt for these two little girls. I can't believe that I am a mother. When Hannah calls me "momma" it just absolutely melts my heart. When our baby girl rolls around in my tummy I just try to imagine loving her more than I already do, and I haven't even met her yet. That is just crazy.

I have come to realize that I don't want time to fly by. I enjoy Hannah being small, and I enjoy our baby girl being safe and snug. I don't even want to think about when they are teenagers. This world scares me and I don't know if I will let them leave the house...EVER!!! I also have to say I have a wonderful husband. I was thinking about him the other day (don't get the wrong idea, I think about him often) and I realized how much fun we have together. He makes me laugh and makes me feel beautiful. He is everything I could have asked for and more. As excited as I am for eternity together...I am currently enjoying the present and loving our life right now. As scary as it to think about money and Shiloh's business, I know I am forgetting to realize how great the simplicity of our life really is.

Well, as you can see, I had a lot to say today but my mind and heart are so full and I have been feeling so so SO blessed lately. So to my husband, two beautiful girls, and our Angel....Thankyou for making life worth living and making me want to enjoy every second of it with you because as the Lyrics say... I'M GONNA MISS THIS! I LOVE YOU!